At certain moments, wrote Coleridge, a single almost insignificant sorrow may, by association, bring together all the little relics of pain and discomfort, bodily and mental, that we have endured even from infancy. The Gamblers Anonymous Program doesn’t teach us to pretend that hardships and sorrow are meaningless. Grief really hurts and so do other kinds of pain. But now that we’re free of our compulsive gambling, we have much greater control over our thinking. And the thoughts we choose to spend time on during any given day can strongly influence the complexion of our feelings for that day.
Am I finding different and better ways of using my mind?
Today I Pray
May I thank God for the pain that magnetizes my succession of old hurts into one large one that I can take out and look at, and then discard to make room for new and present concerns. May I thank God for restoring my sensitivity to pain after the reckless numbness of my gambling days.
Today I Will Remember
I can thank God for restoring my feelings.